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最后一次
Tuesday, 27 November 2007

这是我最后一次说这件事!!!

我不想夹在你们的中间!!! 你们有什么东西请你们自己跟彼此说!!! 我不是传话筒!!! 像今天一样!!! 他说要去咖啡店吃东西!!! 我就去跟她说!!! 可是她不想去!!! 理由是等一下她会迟到!!! 我叫她去跟她说!!! 不巧的!!! 他打电话来!!! 我跟他说她不要去!!! 结果呢!!! 我被他说了一顿!!! 又不是我不要去!!!她自己去叫他去另一个地方吃!!! 我不知道结果怎么样!!!

但我知道的是!!! 你们有什么东西, 就算你们不想跟对方说话, 请不要跟我说!!! 我什么都不要管!!!不要给我什么理由“他有没有跟我说”,“你跟她说啦, 。。。。”

为什么当我觉得我的生活在经过那么多事情后, 变得平静多了!!! 但一定会有一些事情发生!!! 而我呢!!! 我就无辜的连累!!! 我累了!!! 真的累了!!!不想多说了!!!


10:56 am



Friday, 23 November 2007

爱一个人是痛苦的,
等待一个人是无奈的!


疼一个人是心碎的,
期待一个人是崩溃的!


爱一个不爱你的人,
是筋皮力尽的!


等待一个不爱你的人,
是望眼欲穿的!


疼一个不疼你的人,
是肝肠寸断的!


期待一个不回头的人,
是......无可奈何的!


忘记一个你爱过的人,
是......不可能的!


11:20 pm



Thursday, 22 November 2007

为什么每当我要忘记你的时候,你就会出现在我的面前。。。 看到你只会让我更难过。。。就会让我想起一切的一切。。。想忘记不想想起的东西真的有那么难吗???可能有一些东西不是说忘就能忘记的。。。


心里有股奇怪的感觉。。。 但不知道是什么样的感觉。。。 我只觉得我得的脑海里是空的。。。心里也是空的。。。 我没有心情做任何的东西。。。 心里很难受。。。 但是我没有办法。。。 但我又可以怎样呢???只能喜皮笑脸。。。 这样一来他们就不用为我担心。。。因为他们有他们的烦恼。。。 我不想争加,他们的负担。。。


我好恨自己!!! 什么事都做不好。。。 书都读不好!!! 这次的 UT 有完蛋了!!! 是那是我拿 E 的!!! 心情很不好!!! 好想哭啊!!! 好想好想!!! 但我不会的!!! 死都不会在那样做!!! 因为我的朋友都不在我的身边!!! 没有一个可以给我依靠的!!!


8:38 am



Such a boring day!!!
Tuesday, 20 November 2007

2day is damn sian... cant use msn in sch... cuz e sch dun allow us to use it... they juz dun wanna say it... they give lame excuses that there is virus passing down from e msn.... but den... during break time all of us can sign in sia... damn it lor... so obvious they juz dun wan use to use it as they scare we always play wit it instead of doing ppt... but... it cause so much trouble 2 us lor... when e team member wanna send ppt slides to us & he/she does nt have thumbdrive, den how r we 2 receive it sia... 4get it... maybe i think too much le ba... hehe...

2day i wait 4 yong2 to do her rj & we take train together cuz she gtg work ma... long time nv take same train as her le sia... lol... MC ask 2 go home together.... but i PS him... hehe... cuz he gtg find his fren ma... so i tink dun nid mi ba... hehe... 手心是肉、手背也是肉。。。 both my fren sia... make things difficult for mi... lol... JKJK... next time walk together den nth will happen... lol...

sparing some time for my usual grp of peers is very important 2 mi... cuz since we different class le... n we usually busy wit our own things that we seldom get together... so i will always try my best to s-pare some time wit dem....

now, my new friend in current class is also important 2 mi... we still gt 7 weeks to be together... so i previous it alot... time passes so fast.... left only 7 weeks... haiz... hope tat for e next few weeks, i can get to know some of dem well.... haha...


PS: 我骗了你!!!之前我写的那篇文章是因为你跟我说了你的事情之后,我想跟你说的话。 但我不知如何跟你说,所以我就用写得让你明白。。。我没有写你的名字是因为我不想让你有任何的烦恼。你问我时,我不跟你说是因为我不知道要怎样跟你说,而且我不想你认为我太过多管闲事。 哈哈!!!


6:54 pm



Monday, 19 November 2007

DAMN IT LA.... GRRRR..... I STUDY SO HARD FOR UT.... IN E END.... WAT I GT IS THOSE PATHETIC GRADES.....

FOR E 4 UT GRADES THAT CAME OUT, I GT 2 C.... 1 C+... AND 1 E.... E SIA... TAT MEAN FAILED UNTIL VERY CHAM LA.... SADDEN....

PULL MY GRADE DOWN.... GIVING MI MORE STRESS.... CUZ FOR E NEXT 3 UT.... I NID TO GET B... WITHOUT FAILING E 3 UT....

STRESS ARHHHH..... I NID 2 GET B OR BETTER FOR ALL E 3 UT TAT IS LEFT.... SO THAT I CAN GET GPA OF 3.5... HEE... I NOE IM GREEDY... BUT BO BIAN LA... IF I NV GET TIS GRADE TIS SEM... DEN WAT 4 I PUTING SO MUCH EFFORT THIS SEM & WASTING MONEY HERE LEH... HEHE... GIVING MYSELF SO MANY STRESS & AIMING TOO HIGH LEH...

BUT I WONT GIVE UP.... DIE DIE ALSO WANNA GET GPA OF 3.5... HEE.... MAYBE I CANNOT FULFILL TIS GRADE... BUT WAT I GET DURING E END OF TIS YR SHLD NOT BE LESS DEN 3.... HEE...

JIA YOU BA!!!!! I NOE I CAN MAKE IT.... HEE...


2:55 pm



Friday, 16 November 2007

经过那么多的事情,我领悟到了很多东西!!! 我的思想也随着改变!!!

戴上面具面对众人的人是很悲哀的。。。 外表看起来坚强的人,内心其实是很脆弱的!!! 为什么呢??? 因为他们每天都带着微笑的面具去面对众人。。。 他们每天都嬉皮笑脸的。。。 但是一道夜深人静、独自一人、在自己的被窝时,心中的不愉快、悲哀与难过就会呈现在脸上。。。 一直把这些情趣隐藏在心里,不要把它表现出来的话,只会更加的伤害到自己, 对自己没有好处。。。 把它解放出来会让自己的心情更愉快。。。

在这时会,朋友派上了用场。。。让他们来分享你的喜怒哀乐。。。 不要觉得这样会加上他们的他们原有的负担,因为朋友有事,我们都回聆听与分享你的问题。。。 虽然,我们不能让你解决你心中的困扰、也不能帮你打到你所要的答案,但是可以帮你一起承担,减轻你的负担,让你觉得没有那么困扰。。。

人呢,不可以太过心软。。。 伶愿自己受伤,也不要伤害到别人!!! 但是,不管做的什么决定,一定会伤害到一方。。。 太过伟大,只会让自己伤的越深。。。 因为事情总会在你的心理,不会消失。。。 但如果伤害的对方,对方可能过了一些日子就会把它忘了!!! 因为时间可以冲淡一切。。。人如果月心软,到头来自己只会伤得更深。。。 人要学会自私。。。 凡是到要为自己想想,不要只为别人想。。。


10:09 pm



沉默玩具
Thursday, 15 November 2007

变成了一个影
隐藏了自己
爱情困难呼吸
我是沉默玩具
执着对你无限情
模糊我自己
不愿深深把爱情
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决拥抱
我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意寂寞点点不休息
而让甜蜜却也忘记
幸福不再美丽
可是我会在意
这种对你的深情
我不会怪自己
不愿意深深的情意
输了你的游戏
你要逃
对决了拥抱
我看到
为什么爱上你的人是我
为什么一厢情愿的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
爱上你需要那真情意
说在而情意
喔~~爱~~
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
喔~~爱~~
这么爱你的人会难过
为什么对你舍不的人是我
还是你需要那真情意
说在而情意


3:17 pm



其实还爱你
Tuesday, 13 November 2007

其实还爱你
我讨厌阴天的风
冷得那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落
被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由
每一夜闭上眼睛
我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝直接割到我心中
不想装作脆弱也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以任性求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你
可不可以任性求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你


10:50 pm



我为什么还爱你

我为什么还爱你

一天过一天 明天再见
这是你每次说的 一直都没有改变
你的无奈 我知道你的心已不在
放开 这是最好的决定

你的爱 已不在 我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心丢我在 这里

一天过一天 明天再见
这是你每次说的 一直都没有改变
你的无奈 我知道你的心已不在
放开 这是最好的决定

你的爱 已不在 我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心丢我在 这里

我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你 (想着你)
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你 为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因 你狠心丢我在 这里


10:40 pm



12 - 13/11

12/11

start of sch aft 1 week holiday... so happy... cuz dun nid work... hee.... nv meet wit e usual peers... come 2 sch myself... mich n randall nv come... dunno wat happen...

computing lesson sia... so bored... lucky same grp wit fifi & MC... they entertain mi 1 whole day sia... i tink im more closer 2 in tis new sem class... they r nice ppl... when i nt happy or feeling down, they wil come n concern mi.... when im bored, they will entertain mi... MSYBE I THINK TOO MUCH.... LOL...

no1 go home wit mi sia... yy gt dance... poor mi... lucky gt MC... take same train wit him... he take mi walk another route frm our sch 2 mrt station... e route i nv walk be4 sia... so many cars lor... quite scary 2 mi... HEE... he drop down few stops be4 mi... den im lonely again... lol... actually i used 2 it le... e usual peers everytime also take different line as mi... they take the green line n i take e red line de...

13/11

coming 2 sch myself... 2day UT is ok la... HEE... managed 2 do finished... reached sch ard 8.30am... so early lor... when i step in e class... no1 come yet sia... gtg home alone too... nvm... can go home early... den can slp... i lack of slp sia... yeah... gtg home soon... lol...


3:22 pm



shattered into a million pieces

Shattered into a million pieces

She sat down on the sandy ground,
Legs pulled up close to her chest,
Contemplating life and what was to happen
Now that her world has been turned upside down.
Her heart had shattered into a million pieces
When he told her those seven little words…
‘I think we should see other people…’
Last night over the phone.
‘Honestly’, she thought.
‘I now understand what it feels like to have a broken heart,’
Smiling morbidly through her tears.
‘I know mine has shattered.’
They had been together for years,
And this came all of a sudden.
How would she be able to face a life
Without him by her side, protecting her?
Not that he did much protecting…
He was the one she needed to be protected from,
Most of the time, at least.
Her family didn’t want them together, but she loved him.
‘How do you mend a broken heart?
One that has been filled to the brim with love?
When you can only be comforted by one person,
And he was the one that broke it?’


11:13 am



Monday, 12 November 2007

OK>>> I WILL TELL U ALL WHERE I GO TIS WEEK>>>>

3 - 4/11
working @ OG Albert... so strict there sia... cant bring hp & even wallet... siao lor... lik promoter will steal their things... lol... den still nid punch e card... when u go in... punch @ e checkpoint den go 2 e cashier punch again... when gtg break or home... punch @ e cashier den punch @ e checkpoint again... so ma fan...

there is 1 incident tat my brand de pricetag staple wrongly... a $13 shirt wit a $19 pricetag on it... den gt 2 auntie come 2 mi... ask mi how much is it... den i say $13... den 1 of e auntie say until so loud... "but we pay $16 leh"... den i check e pricetag... it show $16... bo bian... is our fault... so i kip quiet... den ask e full-time promoter 2 come out... den e full-time promoter tell dem tat we cant refund u de money.... can u get another piece... 1 of e auntie say "how can like tat? y cant we get back e money!!!"... bo bian... full-time de bring dem 2 e cashier n ask 4 a refund... e staff come out... tok 2 dem... den tall dem if they wanna refund... nis go another cashier 4 a refund... they are stoned... den e supervisor ask dem 2 buy other thing den they juz say ok lor... WT... only noe how 2 bully promoter... ARHHHH!!!! bo bian... is our brand de fault....

next time any of u go buy things do check proper;y hor... in case e pricetag is wrong den u nid pay more... if e price is less den normal price den 4get it.... take e 1 & go... HEE...

5 - 11/11

i working @ Isetan katong.... in case u all dunno is @ parkway parade... i came home late... ard 11pm... so tired lor... e bus journey so long sia.... i take bus 76 den it take ard 1 hr to reached there.... so long lor... sit until my butt so pain.... lol... e promoter there is nice... they will help each other... normally is i help them.... cuz they busy... but i always free... their clothing is so nice lor... my brand only get t-shirt.... hu will buy leh... so im very free... lol... as for e staff... dunno how 2 say... always ask mi clean here n there... den dun do tis n tat... listen le i also sian... all staff is lik tat... they tink u r new promoter there den they will "command" u...

but i dun care... i nt taking pay frm them... y muz i listen 2 dem... it will only make mi more stress... so many pretty & young promoters sia... hee... but no guys... cuz mine is ladies wear department ma... haiz... lol...

there is an incident when e other brand by my side de went 4 her lunch... den her customers come.... asking mi... toking so loud 2 mi sia... ask hu is e promoter... i say go 4 lunch... den she say she order dunno wat thing frm a promoter frm tat brand & expecting e promoter 2 call her when the stock come... but she nv receive any call... den i dunno wat 2 say... ask e other promoter... den promoter "entertain" her... den i stand beside ma... e customer say so loud tat "DEN SO HOW!!!"...

really f sia... how we noe how... we nt e promoter of tat brand... we cant do anything.... ask her 2 wait lor.... still gt how.... she nid 2 talk until so loud meh... rich so wat... promoter nt human being huh.... promoter is nt her maid lor... hee... so angry...


9:47 pm



MIA!!!!
Sunday, 4 November 2007

i will be MIA for e whole week... hmmm...
i will be working e whole week....
3-4/11 @ OG Albert...
5-7/11 @ Parkway Parade...
8/11 @ OG Albert(maybe)....
9/11 & 11/11 dunno go where!!!! lol...
10/11 off day!!!!
this whole week... dun bother come find mi... HEE...
hope all of u doing well... lol... ENJOY E HOLIDAY!!!!
12/11 go back sch!!!! YEAH YEAH!!!! finally can rest le... lol...
can see my classmate... have fun n joy with dem... can see yong2, mich, randall... ect...
tats all 4 today... i wanna go slp le... tml nid work full shift... so far... sian...


9:21 pm