i tink tat my previous blog post had cause alot of misunderstanding... lol... pls lor... stop all those thingy... wat u all tink might not be true... i noe wat im doing... i noe wat i feel.... i juz wanna cherish my friendship... if u all kip on gossips abt it... how im i gtg 2 face my fren seh...

cant 2 of e opposite gender ppl get tgt & become gd fren... lol... always wanna tink too much... maybe our action may lead to misunderstanding... but e truth is nt li tat...

i noe wat i shld do le... i will stop all those... even conversation... keep silent is e best thingy le ba... i give up le... i everything also dun wan le... satisfied le ma??? its so hard to cherish friendship... haiz...

so... pls... stop all those nonsense... stop thinking all those thingy tat is impossible... pls dun create more trouble 4 mi... enough means enough... if nt... i dunno wat i wil do...

你对他回复的每条短信都要揣摩很久，生怕那句话惹他生气！即使短信中他的一句玩笑话，你也会猜测颇久，匪夷所思，辗转难眠。。。

你在跟他, 哥们情谊的时候，还得为他出谋划策去追求其他的女孩，即使心碎，嘴上还带着那傻傻的笑容。（你真的很傻）

当你看到他和别的女生在一起时，总是那么开心，而对你却从来没有过好脸色看过，再一次心碎。。。

当你做错事情，跟他道歉的时候，他的一句：没什么！。。。。很无语，因为，你为了这个道歉，思前想后，作了一大段的思想工作，他却一句：‘没什么’！！！！

只有你在想他，他只有在需要你帮忙的时候才有时想起你。。。

最终的结果还是要一个人暗淡的离开，痛苦，心碎，然后遗忘。。。。。

THANKS MC...

i juzt now went to check my e-mail... den i found out that u actually send mi a mail on wednesday, 12 Dec... haha... thanks seh... so touch seh... noe my UT not so well done den wanna help mi....

sad to say... i think im gtg 2 make u disappointed again... haha... cuz... as u noe... i juz open tis mail... i nv really focus on what u send mi... & i dunno how to do on tat day when we having UT...

anyway... THANKS SO MUCH!!!!

我不希望历史重演。。。 所以我选择把它藏在心里！！！ 反正这个假期过后，还有四个星期就会结束了！！！ 一切就会停止。。。 好希望那个日子快点到来。。。现在我能做的就只是保持安静。。。不会再多说什么。。。也不会再管什么。。。反正一切都和我无关。。。

有一种不舍得的感觉。。。又要和一班朋友分离了。。。 我替他们高兴，因为我给带来了种种的不开心。。。我自己知道事情不是出在他们身上。。。 是我的关系。。。我无理取闹，我小气， 我自私，我自大。。。不久他们就可以解脱了。。。

后果我自己一个人承受就好了。。。 每一次到头来受伤的只有我。。。因为只有我在在乎。。。 在紧张。。。我把他们的话都当真。。。 我不喜欢他们没有遵守它们的约定。。。如果他们做不到的话就不要答应我。。。就因为这样，我的身上有好多好多的伤痕。。。都是他们一刀一刀的刺上去的。。。

越来越没有胆量去争取我要的东西。。。只能眼睁睁的看着他从我身边溜走。。。没关系。。。我选择的事，我不会后悔。。。但我会心痛。。。一切都会过去的。。。 哈哈。。。

2day went out wit my classmates... amy, her fren, james, haziq, dillon & mc... i dun really lik it... cuz i cant get along wit dem... haha... 2day i think im quite quiet... cuz i gt nth 2 say 2 dem... feeling so extra... lol... NEXT TIME I WONT BE GTG ANYMORE, UNLESS ITS CLASS OUTING!!!! EVEN IF I GO, I ALSO BE ISOLATING MYSELF...

we went to kpool play pool... recalling e time when i went wit my peers... i still remember we went they during mid-night @ ard 3am... so fun lor... den we went to have so drink... den amy & her fren go watch movie... so i went wit james they all lor... walking ard e orchard... haha... went isetan scott... den go opposite orchard tower de mac... den go orchard tower... den we go home...

i lik my usual grp of peers... e whole day.... i recalling e time we are together... 2day i went to almost e places tat i went wit dem... i really have a lot of fun @ tat time... i miss e time we are together... we had alomost 5 months nv go out le... haha...

我好掘强喔！！！你不跟我说话我也不会跟你说话的。。。 哈哈。。。 两个个性那么掘强的人一旦碰在一起，后果就会向我们现在这样吧。。。 哈哈。。。 我好嫉妒你啊！！！ 我的朋友似乎都变成你的朋友。。。 跟让我惭愧的是，你现在反而比我跟了解它们、比我跟亲近他们。。。 他们所发生的事情我都是从你的口中知道的。。。

我是不是到了指我反省的时候了。。。 我知道我很小气。。。一点点都生气。。。但都是因为我在乎，我才会生气的啊。。。 我在乎朋友给我的感觉。。。

我真的想不到我可以一天不跟我的一个朋友说话。。。每时每刻都看到对方的人一天没有说话，感觉很奇怪。。。 明明很想跟对方说话的。。。但话一道嘴边却说不出来！！！仿佛有什么东西在喉咙里，不管我怎样死命的要说话，我就是发不出声音来。。。

但我觉得无所谓啊！！！朋友不就是这样的吗。。。我管我们有没有跟对方沟通，只要我们知道对方在做什么、想什么、他们的近况、那就可以了！！！ 因为我知道不管我走到多远，当我需要你们的时候，你们都会在那里，默默的保护与守护着我。。。哈哈。。。

嘿。。。我觉得如果你没有诚意的话呢，干脆就不要问我们好了。。。 我们每次都一起走是因为彼此都有个伴吗。。。 也比较好啊~！！！ 那么多人一起走比较不会那么寂寞。。。

如果不要等我们，没有关系。。。你可以叫另一个人一起走、叫她收拾好她的东西。。。 没有叫我们没有关系。。。 至少我们会觉得你们有什么东西要做，所以要先走。。。 但令人懊恼的是，当你们都收拾好东西，走的时候，你走到你一个桌子，另一个走到门口的时候，你才问我们要不要一起走。。。

那还有什么意义呢。。。 那已经没有意义了。。。 因为我们不会那么厚脸皮，叫你们等我们。。。 我没有权力那么做。。。 所以呢！！！ 我宁愿你不要问！！！

这只是我的想法。。。 如果你觉得我奇怪也好、神经病也好。。。由你去想吧。。。 对我来说、你的想法、一举一动、都不管我的事。。。 我没有权力去管你、也不相管。。。 和我不相干。。。

为一只希望不会破坏我们的友谊。。。 那对我来说才是就重要的。。。

haiz... now having computing & math module... so sian sia... nth 2 do.... 2day so happy... i have Fifi, Mc, seok eng, & amy in my team... haha... quite happening la... lol... amy noe busy doing ppt... seok eng doing her own stuff... Fifi & Mc... dunno where they go... lol... none of my business... cant be bothered... haha...

below is sumting tat i quoted... haha... i think its meaningful... haha... & i learn more abt wat real fren are... lol...

"朋友是你前进中的给你指明方向的人. 朋友是为你解决困难的人，朋友是与你知心的人，朋友是关爱你的人.朋友是与你朝夕相处的人，而不会因为你存在着一些微不足道的缺点,而到处乱讲的人.因为人无完人嘛!何况你的朋友也不是一个十全十美的人啊!

朋友是金,朋友是银,朋友是阳光,朋友是月亮.朋友是星星.朋友是在你走向黑岸的时候，为你 点亮明灯的那个人.朋友不会因为你现在处于困难时期，而离你远去的人.朋友不会因为你处 在人生低谷的时刻而抛弃你的人.

真正的朋友不会人云亦云，不会在你受伤的伤口上再洒上一把盐的人.朋友不会因为小人对你 的栽赃,而远离你的人，而是在这个时候，伸出援助的手来关心你，关怀你的人.

真正的朋友不会见利忘义.不会随风倒,不会对有用的人就阿虞奉承,对无用的人就一脚踢开的人.真正的朋友不会因为一点私利,就把朋友的情谊抛开了一边.

真正的朋友不会有私心的,他会在你需要帮助的时候，不顾一切的对你呵护的人，他会一直对你最忠诚的人，他会承诺你们以前的一言一行,不会因为你暂时的不顺利,而把你忘掉的人.

真正的朋友是有道德的,在你有困难的时候，他不会对你施加任何的压力,对你施加让你喘不过气的做法的.真正的朋友会是理智的，会是有头脑的.他不会看到你此时的不顺,他不会是袖手旁观的.他会在背地里解劝你，他会私下里与你交流,他绝对不会把对你看法直接说给别人的听的.也就是说,他会给你留面子的.

真正的朋友可以为朋友两肋插刀,为朋友可以呼风唤雨,为朋友可以是阳光般的心情,会是对你 百般呵护."

我好烦啊！！！ 我不知道我自己到底在想什么！！！ 我满脑子都是东西！！！ 每次对着天花板发呆！！！好像在想东西似的！！！ 但脑子里却是空的！！！我整天都无理取闹的！！！ 真可怜了我身边的朋友。。。 每天都被我打、被我捏、对他们发脾气。。。他们每次都在迁就我。。。真得很“对不起”！！！ 但他们也好不到哪里去！！！不要给我烦恼，我就谢天谢地了！！！

我所做的每一件事、似乎都在伤害到另一个人。。。嘿！！！ 我不是故意的！！！ 哈哈。。。

im so tired la... juz feel lik slping... my head feel so heavy... stomach so pain... haha... & e weather is so nice 2 slp sia... juz wake up from a short nap... 2 hours onli... haha... now, my eyelid covering half of my eyes... my view is very small & blur... my hair is so messy... flying all over the face... haha...

just done my rj... dunno wat 2 write for it... haha... anyhow crap... haha... gtg 2 have a new tv set... & bro is gtg 2 fixed his HP lappy tml... yeah.... tat means i dun nid 2 use my lappy @ home le... haha... i can let my lappy rest le... haha... it had been on everyday... haha.... for a very very long hours... lol...

Ps: 我知道你不会生我的气。。。 但还是要对你说声“对不起”。。。又把你当出气筒。。。每次都把不开心的是出在你身上。。。 你的手脚都伤痕裂裂吧。。。没办法。。。现在在班里只有你可以让我开心。。。所以啊！我每次都说你是个值得交的朋友。。。但是， 每次都被你气到爆。。。 哈哈！！！总之，谢了！！！ 新好多了你这个朋友，让我的生活多了一些色彩！！！

Your Mood is a 0

You're having the worst mood ever, and possibly the worst day ever. Hopefully things will be looking up for you soon.

guess wat stupid thingy i did 2day??? im extremely quiet seh!!! totally speechless 2day!!! no mood 2 play & joke ard... lol... dun ask mi wat strong wit mi... cuz i dunno too!!! dun worry abt mi!!! i juz feel extremely tired... tired of e sch life... tired of e people ard mi... tired of very thing...


i admit i too emotional... i treat every ones' words seriously... deep inside my heart... sumtime i noe they did nt say it on purpose... but i juz take it in heart... wat they say 2 mi totally affect my emotion & attitude towards doing sumthing...


when i totally speechless... tat means sumting is extremely wrong with mi... lol... i juz dun wanna say it out... keeping quiet is e best solution le... maybe im too stubborn... haha...


juz let mi be ba... i wont cry... even if i wanna cry... i will quickly run 2 e toilet... so no1 will saw it... haha... tats wat i always did... lol... i choose 2 keep everything 2 myself... even how close a person 2 mi... i will not tell him/her anything...


i noe every one had their own problem... i dun wan add 2 their burden... if i really nid help i will seek help frm dem de... i noe they will always be by my side... & i noe who are really my frenz... lol... so... juz let mi be ba... haha...

Your Birthdate: April 9

You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count. You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing. Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time. You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything. Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic Your power color: Pine green Your power symbol: Circle Your power month: September

hmmm... same grp wit MC & fifi... lol... its computing day... lol... as usual... we dun get to do anything... we juz sit there doing our own stuff... MC & FIFI discussing sumthing related to dunno wat concert and those celebrities ba... i leh... hmmm.... 4get wat i did le... haha... OHYA... i juz sit there, feel very sleepy... wanna sleep... they tok wat happen 2 mi sia... lol... I JUZ BORED TO DEATH... lol...


btw... wat i say is right... haiz... cant praise sum1 de... haiz... he so proud 2 be mention as gentlemen arhhh... lol... he read my blog in class den immediately give FIFI take a look @ tat particular paragraph... lol... haha...


get to meet randall & yong2 for a drink... lol... mich had to do ppt so nv tag along... sadded... lol... nvm la... still gt so much of chance again... really hope 1 day, we can be lik e past, all of us (randall, yong2, mich, chris, CL), can get together & we will go have some fun... haha... & ton... lol... i wont 4get my sun-rise... they promise 2 go see wit mi de... i wait so long le la... lol... feel lik asking dem go sentosa... haha... see how ba...

I DUNNO WAT E FXXK THOSE FACI WANT!!! I NV CONTRIBUTE, I DESERVE "C"... THIS I ACCEPT... CUZ I NOE IS MY FAULT... BUT... E PROB IS... WHEN I DO MY PART, WORKING SO HARD ON IT... I DO CONTRIBUTE... THEY STILL GIVE MI "C"... & E STUPID FXXKER KIP GIVING MI "Cs".... WAT SHE WANT MI 2 DO... KIP TELLING MI THOSE IRRITATING & NON-SENSE REASONS....

ITS NT FAIR... BECUZ OF ALL THOSE REASON, SHE GIVE MI "C"... I DID DO SUMTING... I DID CONTRIBUTE... BETTER DEN SUM IDIOT HU ONLI NOE HOW 2 PRETEND WHEN E FACI COME 2 E TEAM... & I GET E SAME STUPID GRADE DEN THOSE IDIOT... WAHH... IT GONNA DRIVE MI MAD... WAT SHE WANT MI 2 DO... FRM E START OF E SEMESTER TILL NOW... SHE KIP GIVING MI "Cs"... WHEN A RELIEF FACI REPLACE HER FOR 1 LESSON, I GET AN "A" FRM E RELIEF FACI...

REALLY DUNNO WHAT THE HELL SHE WANT... I WILL NT LET THOSE FXXKER PULL MY GPA DOWN... DUN EVEN LOOK DOWN ON MI... I WILL PROVE U WRONG... I WILL MAKE SURE TAT THOSE UT STARTING FRM TIS WEEK ONWARDS, I AT LEAST NID 2 GET "B"...

haha... long time nv blogg le sia... lol... cuz nth 2 write... life is still as normal... tis moment of time, i feel very stress... reason being... my daily grades is gtg down... kip getting Cs.... UT grade leh... sux lor... haiz... dun ask mi y i did so badly... cuz i also dunno y... i did study 4 UT... BUT~~~ haiz....

feel very moody recently... dun feel lik toking... but i cant always kip quiet ma... i cant make my frenz worry abt mi... haha... but... i still make dem worry abt mi... lol... cuz i kip pulling a long face instead of smiling everytime, which i usually do... lol... they ask mi y i so moody... i dunno wat 2 say... lol...

juz wanna tell dem dun nid worry abt mi... im fine de... lol... juz lik last time... i am so adnormal tat i kip crying... lol... but aft awhile i back to normal le arhhh... its juz a matter of e time... hehe...

lucky... gt MC in my class sia... can play wit him... lol... he so funny lor... hehe... look lik ah beng... BUT... hehe... cant tell u all... if nt he will smack mi again... haha... however, i will pretend crying... den he will let mi hit him back... haha... so fun... such a gentleman... haha... unlike sum1... OPPS... hehe.... i dun wan say so much good things abt him... if nt he will be very proud of it... haha...

nv get 2 meet/ tok 2 yong2 thru msn tis few days sia... dunno how is she... juz hope she is doing fine ba... lol... Mich start coming 2 sch le... yeah... gt 1 more ppl acc mi le... wahaha... randall leh... hmmm... dunno leh... cant help his prob, so dun wan go disturb him... lol... if i wan noe anything abt him i can ask MC too... haha... MC now more close wit him den mi ba... lol... HE SNATCH MY FREN AWAY FRM MI.... SOBS~~~~ haha... JK LA...