我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对

你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切

站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人

你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过

好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过

你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多
少错至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做

你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走

站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人

你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过

好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过

你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人

你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过

好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过

你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过


sum1 says tis song is wat he wan to tell mi.... lol... hmmm.... wat does it mean???? dunno.... but i onli noe, e red and dark green colours de is not for mi... haha... e rest... haiz... he onli say nia... nv kip his promise... he still abandon mi... lol... diao... tts y i say... i dun understand him... i dun understand wat he trying to say everytime... wat thing he actually wan to say... his eng so chim... as if i understand... i onli will misunderstand wat he trying to say... cuz him to kenna scolded by mi... lol... cant blame mi hor... juz get straight to e point... dun turn rd & rd... i dun understand de...

cum... wat will hurt mi??? his sentence will onli make ppl misunderstand ba le... lol... aiya... once again... i nv treat anyone gd de... i treat everyone e same... im fair to everyone... so... :P no comments le... lol...

hmm... my gpa is out... wootx... no much changes... lol... actually, i didnt put in much effort tis yr... so i dun expect too much... haha... gpa didnt drop can liao... haha...

hmm... my new sem class is out... im sad... so depress... same class with jason & pearly if i nt wrong... dunno la... nv check... sum1 tell mi de la... w54q ba... if nt wrong... lol...

hmm... all tis holiday, i was hoping, praying hard tt i wont be in e same class wit jason... nt tt i hate him or dun lik him or wat... is lik there is many misunderstanding between us... he refuse to listen to mi... wat i noe is tt he does nt trust mi le... so for mi, wat for i treat tis person as my fren if he no longer trust mi... if he really my fen, he wont do so many things behind tt some of my classmate is telling mi...

i kip telling myself, if i nv hear it personally, i can confirm tt he said so... i dun had to listen to my classmate... but... tts nt wat i tink in my heart... i gt eyes to see... gt brain to tink... but e outcome always disappoint mi... cuz, wat i tink, is wat i saw and wat my classmate say...

nvm ar... i nt gg to do anything to tis person.... since e moment i choose to forget tis person, i dun care of tis person le... i onli noe, e more i say to him, e more hurt i get in return... so wat for... he always say dun bear grudge of tt quarrel.... haha... to mi, i dunno which quarrel he means...

with regard to nic de ma??? haha.... i nid apologise to nic la... cuz i misunderstand him.... SORRY SORRY... hmm, i & nic ma... get quite close during certain time aft tt quarrel... but now... haha... dunno wat happen... i gonna crazy... watever reasons he give... even how hard it is for mi to accept... suan le... tts wat i can do... wootx... i onli noe, tis person is juz 擦肩而过... haha... listen to tis song sing, dun tell mi some parts of tis song is meant for mi de... cuz i dunno which part isit... but its no longer important now... it juz give mi a sudden feeling tt, i dun wan c tis person le... is it wat i tink in my heart????? of cuz nt... cuz all r fren ma.... y i do tt... but every msg he sent is juz hurting ppl... so wat for....

he same class wit py... hmm... really hope tt they can be fren again lik last time... jiayou ba... wat i can do i do liao... haha... choice is on their hands le...

hmm... getting back to jason ba... its somehow my fault tt he change into such a diff person as comapre to e past... SORRY SORRY... when i noe tt im in e same class wit him... my tears start to roll down... nt tt im happy... is lik wat is my life gg to be lik again... when im typing all tis.... i cant stand but to cry again... wootx... wat im i to do now??? 16 more weeks... to mi is lik 16 yrs... wat can i do so all dun be so gan ka...

tts e moment sansan loss her pride le ba... she actually msg him, apologise to him, ask him to forget e past... etc... but all e reply she get is hurtful... every words is lik horns... stab hard into my heart... its bleeding nonstop now... even include e pain tt nic give... im nt pusing fault to dem... is i find trouble for myself la... so i can onli push everything to myself...

im always believe im a strong person... no matter wat, i also muz take it... dun let others see my feeling... & they r no longer to see my smile le... i cant even find my smile back... its no longer with mi le... it has follow e wind, fly to somewhere in tis world... wootx... WTH im i gg to get it back????

i can onli be myself when im wit yong2, randall, mich, jerina, zaiyong, mackino, windy.... cuz they r onli e one hu can make mi smile...

no matter wat... i cant collapse now... i cant fall again... i dun wan dem to worry for mi... e 16 weeks will be a hard journey for mi... wat i can do is juz... REN REN REN... PRETEND PRETEND PRETEND.... pretend i dunno tis him... to let myself to know e brand new him... force myself to accept e situation...

no matter how hard it is for e coming 16 weeks... bless mi ba... hope i can get alive... lol... jk la... i noe i can make it de... e most i becoming more heartless... more coldblooded... & u all wont c e talkative mi again... haha...

ciaoZ...

世界上有两件事是永远也勉强不了的，小时候是学习的兴趣，长大了，是爱情。
　　
这，是一面镜子，勇敢放弃，勇敢面对，勇敢重新开始。当他不爱你的时候，无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者从未爱过，总之，当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，他的心便不会记得你，更不会在乎你。就算他知道你深爱他，偶尔也能感觉得到你的关心，但他宁可装作是不知道。不爱了的那个人永远是先放得开的，所以，请你也不要折磨自己，痛苦太长时间。要学会自然，如果你选择坚强接受，你们的结束会被认为是没有缘分，也许在他的心里，还会留下些许的遗憾；可是如果你不够理智，总是想做一些事情挽回这段已经不可能存在的爱情，那么你们的结束只能被他看成是性格不合。 　　

当他不爱你的时候，请不要在你不开心，或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。也许他会在接到你的电话的时候，淡淡地安慰你几句，并且说衷心祝福你快乐，却也仅此而已。当他不爱你的时候，你的爱，你的人，就会显得廉价许多。你占了下风，这是人的本性。也许你会再想要一点什么，于是说：“我们见一面吧，我们可以一起吃顿饭吗？”如果你以为吃顿饭，见一面就能挽回你失去的爱情，那么你就太错了，太傻了。而他心里也肯定很烦躁了。他会说：“我现在有点事情，等有机会吧。晚点的时候你再给我电话吧，或者我给你电话也可以。”而你这时千万不要当真，他只是找了个不是很高明的理由来搪塞你。请，不要真的去等，不要骗自己，更没有必要伤心。他的忙碌不会因为你的等待而终止。生活中很多事情对于他来说都是很重要的，而对于他来说最无所谓的就是逝去的爱情了。 　　

当他不爱你的时候，请不要与他讲你的琐事，也不要没话找话说，这些是最愚蠢的，也是最无谓的。也许此刻，善良的你痴情的你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些，不要一下子感觉太生疏。其实你只是暂时过不了自己这一关，他却无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你，你的生活，你的过去，你的长处短处与他又何干？即使讲了，他也很快会忘记的，就如他忘记曾经对你说过的话一样。没有爱，注定你挤不进他的生命。即使，你要的哪怕只是一个很小的角落。在他眼里，你曾经有过的优点全部都成为一种负累，不会再成为吸引他的理由。 　　

当他不再爱你的时候，不要老给他发短信，问他“好不好 ”，他如果学习压力大，你的短信只会给他带来烦躁，并不能使他摆脱压力，而他如果真的很好，那么你心里知道就好，学会默默关心并且祝福他吧！当他不爱你的时候，偶尔你的梦里也许还会出现他的身影，千万不要给他电话或是E-mail告诉他，你会被认为太不成熟。即使梦里真的出现了他，也是很正常的，试着给自己点时间慢慢遗忘吧，别对自己太苛刻！！ 　　

当他不爱你的时候，请不要在他的面前伤心难过，更不要流泪，因为眼泪实在是换不回爱情的，倒会让他更小看你了。也千万不要在他的面前拉着他手不放说 “你要爱我就不要放开我的手！”不要在生病的时候告诉他你很难过，学会自己照顾自己吧。他实在没有过多精力给予你照顾和关心，甚至只是同情一下。请骄傲的你，不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。太多的人，在爱的面前迷失了太多，连重新站起来的勇气都没有，何来骄傲？只是，要永远记得，只有愿意也可以为自己付出真爱的人，才可以真正的去疼惜你，而不是，旁观的同情、怜悯。不要对他说“只要你开心我就开心 ”，这句话在他爱你的时候还显得挺情真意切，一旦分开了，这样的话，即使仍然出自于你的真心，也会让他觉得你给他压力，何必这样逼一个你曾经爱的人呢？幸福是靠自己把握的，不要寄托在任何人的身上。　　

当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。请不要去计算自己曾经的付出，不要希望有什么回报，更不要再有意无意再次流露出你对他的留恋和不舍，因为一切早已经成为过去时。爱着不爱自己的人，本身便是没有回报的，不能计较对与错，这样会快乐些。要记住，你与他之间的爱，是单方面的，你用心，他无心。但是，也不要责怪他，因为也许他曾经真的爱过你，也想做好一些，对你不要那样的冷漠，他也不想要这样的结局。只是，爱一个人，对一个人好，本来就是一种能力。对不起，他也许有这样的能力，只是你们的相爱本身就是一场没有结局的错误，他的能力实在不能够浪费在你的身上，尝试着原谅他吧。当然，也别太悲观的认为他曾经的爱不是真的，他曾经的诺言是假的，人活着本来就不容易，何况还要去选择爱和不爱呢？人与人之间本来就应该多一些理解，何况还是你曾经深爱过的他呢？ 　　

当他不爱你的时候，不要整天想着你们之间到底怎么了，拿什么拯救我们的爱情，因为你们之间的距离已经疏远到他站在你面前，却不知道你有多爱他。你站在他面前，却已经不敢说你爱他。这样的爱还有被拯救的必要吗？ 请不要因为他说你们性格不合而失去自信，也许你的性格确实不适合他，但是这并不能证明你不是一个好女孩，总会有一个喜欢你的性格的一个人为你而生，为你而活，为你而奋斗终生。爱一个人，也并非因为她的优秀，而只是一种感觉。你曾经让他有过这样的感觉，于是他曾经爱上你。同样，他不爱你，也并非你不再优秀。优秀与否，真不是爱与不爱的理由，看看还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，找回自己的信心吧，我们还有很多的事情需要带着信心去做，爱情不是唯一，不是生命的全部。 　　

当他不爱你的时候，静下来的时候还是要想想你有没有欠他什么，尤其是在物质上，能还给他的就还给他吧，这样你的心里也许会好受一些，你可以继续保留的是对于曾经的爱的追忆，只是，不要让他知道。他如果是个大方的男人，是不会收回曾经送给你的礼物的，如果你是个知书达理的女孩，耐心的用心的选一件实用的礼物回赠给他吧，当然，不是作为交换，只是给这段感情划上一个完满的结局，你不再欠他什么。 　　

当他不再爱你的时候，你会经常的无意中就走到了你们曾经一起去过的地方，看到的身边的每一个人都似乎是他的身影，每一对情侣都有可能勾起你对过去的眷恋；你会经常想起他为你而唱的歌，这时候，你肯定会有想哭的感觉，请学会坚强好吗？一个人的时候，千万不要用酒精和烟来麻醉自己，因为那不应该是一个好女孩选择遗忘的方式，如果他知道了，不会心疼，反而庆幸没有继续爱你这样一个女孩。你可以听听你们曾经一起唱过的歌，可以尽情的流流泪，但是千万不要傻到把那首歌设置成你的手机铃声，因为他很可能不会再给你电话了，何必在其它无关的人面前暴露自己最真实也最脆弱的一面呢，人总是要学会坚强的。请不要因为你们曾经拥有过的欢乐和美好回忆就想到“永远”，记住：爱是没有永远的。你此刻深爱，就注定遥远的某一天不能再爱他，也不再爱他，他只是比你早一步到达了这一天。当他不爱你的时候，请轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖，轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。虽然他劝过你回忆过去是没有意义的，要看到未来，你却可以拥有回忆和不回忆的权利和自由，也许随着时间的推移，你会发现，他也并非是你心目中的那般完美，他也是一个普通的人。那么那个时候，你会顺其自然的选择遗忘一切的回忆，说明你真的长大了，真的成熟了，要相信自己！！ 　　

当他不再爱你的时候，亲爱的，请你深深呼吸，一生的路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么一朵属于你，不是安慰你。而是因为很多事情都是早已经注定的，就像佛说前辈子你们回眸了五百次才换得一场短暂的相识，可是缘分还不够，所以能够给你们的只有几天的爱情。也不要自欺欺人的想象着并且希望着下辈子你们能够在一起，因为谁心里都知道这一辈子才是实实在在的，所以我们都要好好生活，好好珍惜自己身边的一切，不要留下任何的遗憾，北宋的范仲淹都知道“不以物喜，不以己悲 ”，何况我们呢？ 如果你知道曾经爱过的他能够幸福开心，那么一切都足够了，即使他不再爱你又有什么关系呢，为了他，你也要快乐。 　　

当他不爱你的时候，不要在别人面前说他的不好，尤其是你们共同的朋友，因为他还有继续爱别人的权利，还需要他的社交圈，表现得豁达一点吧，毕竟他是你曾经爱过的人。当他不爱你的时候，也一定要祝福他，并且一定要真心，不计得失。在能够帮助他的时候，还是像以前一样大方吧，不要吝啬。有了爱，便不该有恨。爱是美好的，恨却是残忍的。何必让生命中最美好的东西化作伤害呢？也一定不要觉得不公平。关于分开和遗忘，你们之间已经不公平了，他放弃和失去的的是一个如此爱他的女孩，而你只是失去了一个不能再爱你的人，却得到了一个重新生活的机会。相比起来，你不是更幸福一些吗！！

7.22am now... im in my kor room... i cant fall asleep... 1 reason is becuz of my cousin hu come my house ytd & share e same bed wit mi... she BLOODY HELL... kick mi e whole nite... until my whole body so pain... GRRR....

firework ytd wit py, dickson, kf & unexpected sum1.... i dunno ab it lor... until i went eat laksa... when i ask kf abt hu is coming.... i was lik stunt... WTH... no1 tell mi de.... im totally LAST min know abt it... intent to go home.... but being stop by dem... lol... i nv say anything.... i juz say i wan go home... dun say i say anything behind sum1's back hor... I NV... e firework is nice, but i dunno y i had a feeling tts nt a perfect one... cuz my mood is obviously nt perfect during tt time... i dunno y... really dunno y.... suddenly dun feel lik talking... juz gonna kip quiet... dun feel lik listening too... maybe juz wan some peace... i dun wan hear any voice ba... no becuz of sum1 hor... its my own problem....

ytd afternoon, i left my house happily.... but onli last till i saw sum1... i noe sum1 dun wan c mi, dun wan talk 2 mi ar.... initially i dun feel tis way... but recently, i feel e same now... i cant even stand it anymore... no matter how much things i sacraficed for sum1... he juz dun appreciate.... i steps so many steps behind inspite of his nonsense... he juz nv or even bother to notice...

i kip quiet, inspite of being stabs badly behind my back... i dun wan say doesnt means i dunno... i juz dun wanna find trouble... tts all... every fault now is being pushed to mi... I TOO STRAIGHTFORWARD UNTIL I DUN EVEN CARE ABT OTHERS FEELING><...

WAHHH.... such a gd sentences.... IM straightfoward cuz i dun wan anyone to misunderstood mi... if i nv say it straight, sum1 wont understand... haiz.... overall, from e start, he juz mistaken wat i done.... HURT HIM??? if i wan, i wont let him off so easily le... NOW, HU E 1 SUFFERING ALL THOSE MENTAL TORMENT....

i was lazy to do anything to get back e friendship le.... cuz i had done enough... its over my limit le... im sad... but i wont show or say.... cuz sum1 wont appreciate... i cant walk any steps behind le... im falling down to e deep diff... i also have my pride... i have my limit...

i juz wan to say to sum1... if wat i said to u previously really hurt u, IM SORRY!!! i say it sincerely from my heart... i dun intent to say all those de... i wont seek for sum1 forgiveness.... cuz i noe u alr had a mindset tt "SAN2 IS A BAD PERSON"... wootx.... no comments... but i juz nt intentionally say tt... tts all... juz dun wan make things worst ba le...

dun have e intent to get back my friendship le... i too tired le... no matter wat i do also wrong... i gt nth to say or do le... wat say is alr said... wat done is alr done... i cant get my words my action back... i nv talk to sum1 in a more gentle way, doesnt mean i very fierce... or dun care of sum1 feeling... dun concern sum1... i juz dun wan sum1 to misunderstood tt i wan get beack to e past so i act "GENTLE"...

ITS OVER LE... say too much also no use... IM SORRY if tis post will make sum1 feel uncomfortable....

ok... nite ppl... now 8am le... & its raining heavily... haha... nice to slp... but kor's room is dark... so scary... its sleeping time... later still nid work @ 6pm... HAIZ... POOR SAN2.... gg broke le... eventho gt work... hehe... nvm... HAPPY CAN LIAO.... IM GETTING BACK MY SMILE... HEHE... BE A HAPPY PERSON...

NITE NITE>>>

wootx... finally slp early ytd le... @ 10+pm... haha... i long time nv slp so early le... :P
maybe im happy ytd... cuz e horoscope is right... "sumthing gd wil happen tt will turn ur life"... haha...

im happy... becuz its a day i put my burden down... i dun expect anything to change... haha... lets c how ba... hmm... overall... quite happy ytd...

cum... i went out wit my fren... lol... we gt lots of fun... aiya... every of our outing is happening de la... sure gt lots of things happen... haha... our secret... nt gg tel anyone...

maybe... i shld try to say things so straightforward le... cuz sum ppl might not lik it... AND sumtimes i will accidentally hurt someone wit my words... i dun mean it... but to dem... maybe they tink differently... to dem, wat i can say is "IM SORRY"...

but pls ppl... u all try to tell mi straight to e point wor.... haha... if nt i wont be able to understand... i will anyhow guess de... and i dun lik guessing game... haha... thanks wor... NO OFFENSE... dun tink too much ppl.... juz randomly tink of writing all tis... haha...

such a sian holiday... lol... beside working.... i juz rot @ home... wootx... dun even go out of my house... lol... dun feel lik gg out ma... juz wanna stay @ home... so i wont get to contact wit tis world... lol...

enough of wat god had plan for mi le... i wont allow same things to happen again... my future is on my hand... i nid to do e right thing @ e right time... haha... feel so relieve @ home now... cuz i make clear of sumting le...

P.S: SORRY FOR BOTHERING U....

i wan make it private cuz i tink tt if i put it open to public... lik very weird... i only invite those tt i trust e to read e blog... tts all... u all can tagg... watever u all want.... wan scold also can... wan comments oso can... i will forever put it as private blog le... wont change le...

Hmm… yr2 sem1 ends le… lots of memory from this class… both sad & happy… tis class is full of laugher and fun… I lik tis class lots… nvm… material sci onli gt 7 classes… eventho all of us cant be in e same class again… but we will be each others neighbour ar… we still can c each other often… most SADDEN thing is tt we dun haf any class outing or chalet or BBQ… lol… no1 organise ar… :P

Hmm… tis will be e last post I will say abt wat happening in tt class le… hmm… let mi reflect back ba…
Firstly, its my fault cuz I shldnt gt close to “J”… lots of quarrel between both of us… he dun understand mi… he wont listen to my explanation… wat he always say is “ITS OVER”… IS IT REALLY OVER??? Maybe to him it is… to mi is nt… cuz all blames & fault is on mi…

If sumting didn’t happened, we wont be in tis state… I NV LET “N” look @ HIS BLOG… I NV NV NV… IS “PS” hu did it… I was juz very unfortunately tt I happened to view e blog on tt day when “PY” tells mi abt it… I can still remb clearly… onli 4 ppl can view his blog… mi, “PY”, “PS”, “D”… & I remb tt on tt day, “PS” came back from her break, when she came in, she immediately took her lappy & went out… nt more den 5 mins, she came back wit e lappy again… CUM… “PY” was @ tt library on tt day… she saw “N” and another gal… she cant c clearly which gal is tt… but I can say… “N” tell mi is her hu tell him… “N” still ask mi dun find “PS” troub, cuz she say she let him c is becuz she tink its unfair to him…

Hmm, I had to apologize to “N”… cuz I misunderstood him… i dunno “J” will comments it on his blog… but wont u all find it weird??? “PS” say its for “N” good… but y did she do tt if she noe tt it will spoil all of our friendship??? Im nt pushing everything to her… I noe is my fault initially… “J” also has his fault ar… he shldnt post tt ar…

If “PS” nv say will tis happen??? Will e friendship between “N” & “J” become lik tt??? will “N” & “PY” become lik tt??? will “J” & mi become lik tt???

Is “J” still tinks tt I let “N” view his blog??? I cant gt back his trust… forever he tinks tt is mi ba… or everything is my fault… they can onli c others fault… hu ever c e fault in themselves???

Tt is obviously nt e ending I wan… i choose to be fren wit “J”… he agree wit mi… but he nv prove to mi ar… I TRIED MY BEST… IM TIRED LE… he tink tt I wan to be fren but I dun treat him lik a fren… if I dun treat him lik a fren… I dun even bothered to talk to him… only he noes in his heart well tt hu dun wanna be hus fren…. Here I am to try my best to pull our gap closely… there “J” is tinking tt I will hurt him… I dun wan be his fren… even I suan him… why muz I always gt mistaken bu him???? Why why why???
“J” wrote sumting in his blog… sumone let mi c it… e content nvm… cuz I noe he will write it… but I dunno wat is his purposely of posting tt post… cuz he wrote tis “ I know sure got copy and paste one, or retype to tell tt sum1 else. Pls don’t”

Isn’t it funny??? If u wan mi to know how u feel… juz tell mi straight… dun nid to write tt whole chunk of things when u alr noe I will c tt content… TT IS E LAST TIME I GT TO C UR BLOG CONTENT… & TT IS E ONLI POST TT I C AFT U DUN ALLOW MI TO VIEW UR BLOG…

I would really lik to ask… IM I REALLY DESERVE ALL E THINGS TT U DONE TO MI???? dun trust mi, dun believe mi, ignore mi…etc…do I really deserve those????

WILL I CAUSE HIM HARM??? WILL I??? if I wan to harm him or anyone, u tink im nt capable enough ma??? If I wan harm him, I wont do so many things to protect him le… I kip REN REN REN…. Cuz I dun wan mi to explode…. If im in tt state, 我会付出一切，达到我要的东西…

My mama tell mi one thing… “他很可怜了，他的家里给他那么多烦恼，如果你能帮他你就帮他， 放他一条生路。。。 不要逼他。。。

I listen to wat mama tell mi to do… I nv force him… but… wt did I gt in return… backstab mi by saying bad things behind my back… whatever I do he also bu shuang… give mi those faces… hu will noe his every expression will affect mi a lot…. I kip quiet… I dun wan say anything… doesn’t mean I dunno wat he done… I just dun wan add into his burden ba le… lik tt also wrong ar????

AND if I wan hurt him… I wont try my best tinking of solution to solve his & his fren prob… I wont waste my time reading tt long chatlog tt he send… & I wont even bothered to send him a document of 1100++ words to tell him wat to do…

I dunno he gt read tt ma… maybe gt, but maybe nt… I don’t expect him to go read too… maybe he wont appreciate my effort… but @ least I tried my best to help him le… I wont regret…

I nv regret anything tt I had done… I juz really really hope tt our Friendship will last forever… “J”, “PY”,”N” & mi… haha… I noe its impossible ba.. but tts wat I really hope la… :D

i change my blogskin le... i choose it becuz i lik it... lol... i dun haf e intention to show anything... its nt how i feel too... i juz mainly lik e blogskin... cuz its unique... tts y...

my last post is nt trying to say anything too... cuz i find it sumway & i think its somehow gt a true meaning of how those ppl will feel... its meaningful... so i decided to post it... tts all...

i ask ppl look @ my blogskin is becuz is becuz i wan to noe if its nice or not.... tts all... if i really wanna tink back... i will let u noe every single things tt happen... u force mi do tt rite... u tink i so xiaoqi all those...

if its nt becuz of U ALL... i wont become lik tt... hu cause mi to become lik tt... u all force mi to become lik tt... dun blame mi....

Why did I love you?
Why did I care?
Why did I let you make me shed so many tears?
You always said you were gonna stay with me from the start.

I always thought you were true until you broke my heart.
Why did you say you loved me if you never really did?
Why did you even have to pretend?

I cared for you more then you could imagine.
I believed you when you always said you cared for me to.
The lies that you had told and the games you have played,
Was something that I could finally just let go?

The pain was gone and there were no more tears.
The laughter and the jokes were no longer there.
Is this what you wanted but never knew how to say it?
If it is then you sure have got it.

I don't want to love you anymore!
I don't have to care!
But I still always will shed my tears!