i wake up early in e morning receive ur msg... ask mi dun nid acc u le... WTH... i prepared liao le... nvm... forget it.... since u say u tired aft tt wan go home slp... but u really tired??? really went home slp??? MF LIAR... wat i saw in blog is u go out wit fren to celebrate...

fan zheng its nt e 1st time... everytime last mins tell mi e things de... I also give u e last min things... now u noe how i feel???

ur damn CB attitude... i dun wan say is juz becuz i treat u as my fren... ur attitude is really from good to worst... nvm... if tt is wat u wan... den let u be... from e time u change onwards i cant be bothered abt u le...

请不要分了以後　还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久　已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多　话哽在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐　或许我爱太多想太多
我能感受　他比我适合
爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　比你先说分手
请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
你的寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活
请不要分了以後　还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久　已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多　话哽在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐　或许我爱太多想太多
我能感受　他比我适合
爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　比你先说分手
请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
你的寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活
爱过恨过哭过也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱
原谅我　必须假装爱错
别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口
原谅我　没有解释太多　心痛
别无所求　彻底忘了我
爱原来有舍得
我爱过　我才懂

PS: 52766 4 63837 734738 568464 968... haha... tt is e things i want to say... see if u r smart enough :D

我不该 再为难你
再多的泪水 吞下去
你已离去 该祝福你
再多的爱 都该藏心底
我知道 你想飞得更高
高到我看不到
就算明明知道 不好
还是要 从天堂往下跳
学火鸟在燃烧　忘了没有落脚
救不了 我只好陪你跳
请原谅我 想要忘掉却忘不了
请原谅我 好和坏都不该打扰
请原谅我 就连恨你都办不到
请原谅我 死都要知道
你到底 爱我有多少

我不该 再为难你
再多的泪水 吞下去
你已离去 该祝福你
再多的爱 都该藏心底
我知道 你想飞得更高
高到我看不到
就算明明知道 不好
还是要 从天堂往下跳
学火鸟在燃烧　忘了没有落脚
救不了 我只好陪你跳
请原谅我 想要忘掉却忘不了
请原谅我 好和坏都不该打扰
请原谅我 就连恨你都办不到
请原谅我 死都要知道
你到底 爱我有多少
假如真的过的不好
别怕被嘲笑而逃
只要让我知道 这样就好
请原谅我 想要忘掉却忘不了
请原谅我 好和坏都不该打扰
请原谅我 就连恨你都办不到
请原谅我 死都要知道
离开我 你真的会更好

by right i should feel happy for you... but i cant bring myself to be happy... i juz cant stand e way u treat other gal now... lik wat 1 of my fren said, im angry nt becuz im jealous... im angry cuz y in the past, when i love you with all ur heart, i didnt get this type of 'attention' form you...

tts is y when u say bye i dun even wan ans back... i noe u say it twice... i juz dun feel lik answering back... u might tink my attitude sux again... suan le... let u tink ba... i juz nt in e mood... juz becuz i saw tis sentence " i now 6th P alr.." i onli saw tis sentence... i den sian diao... alr nt in gd mood liao... make mi more moodless... i dun even dare to face tt direction... cuz i den dun wan c ur msn window... which i cant even look @ e 6th P too...

suan le... u jiayou ba... :)
lik wat i say to u tt time... :)

haiz... dun wan be in e same team also bobian... wan forget tis person also cant... cuz i will see him everyday... SOBS... i close one eye juz dun wan c wat happen... but e suay mi... everytime c wat i dun wan c... WTF la... nvm... REN REN REN... fanzheng i alr REN him for 3 months 15 days... haha.... starting from 1 JULY... lol...

I DUN WAN TO SEE THOSE THINGS THAT HAPPENED ARD>>>
I DUN WAN TO C HIM>>>
I DUN WAN TO C HER>>>
CUZ I STARTED TO NOW WAT E HELL HAPPENED LAST TIME>>>
FORGIVEN BUT CANT FORGET>>>
I WONT FORGET>>>
ESPECIALLY E THINGS U SAY BEHIND>>>

I like you, the past you… I miss you, the past you… I miss the hug that u used to hug me…. I miss the time we every time stick together… the time we o sing… the time we go eat… the time we go shopping… A past is a past… I will never go back to the past again… I just keep it in my memory… Deep in my heart… There is a secret place, for a secret person, whom I cannot say… It will be there forever… So that I would not forget that you once enter my heart without my notice and hurt my lots when you leave… Good memory will always left with me… No matter what others said… I choose to like the one I like… I like you means I like you… no one will change my mind… unless is you…

No matter what… The one I missed is e OLD you… Now… Regretly… knowing what you want… I want to let go le… The more I do not let go faster… The more miserable I am… So… Do you want to see the happy me or a emo me???

PS: I hope I can do the last thing to you the last time... Dont worry about me… I will be fine… I wont go kill myself de please… I wont die so fast… lol… E weaker I feel… E stronger I want to be… And killing yourself is a very stupid things… haha…

有个男孩，他来自有钱的家庭。但他开心，因为他的父母都在做工，他跟哥哥、姐姐的感情很好。尤其是姐姐，因为姐姐时就疼他的。他很怕孤独，每次都要有朋友在身边陪他。睡觉起来时，他好像看到他的朋友在他的身边的感觉。因为那时候他不再孤独， 那也是他喜欢抱着人睡觉的原因。可能拿可以给他安全感吧。每次都他早上去学时，他的父母在睡觉。做工回来时，他的父母也在睡觉。他很坚强， 不靠家人，自己出来打工赚钱，每天工作，是因为有朋友和他玩和他说话。 他怕寂寞， 每次看到他的时候都是笑嘻嘻的。可是他是真的在笑吗？？？打从心理的笑吗？？？

mum said: "san, pls quit ur job & concentrate on ur studies... even if u wan to work, u shouldnt have work so much... as if we cant afford to feed u... now, u affect ur setudies liao... as wat u say, all ur ut1 gone case alr... u onli have 1 choice... if u wan to study, u dun work/ dun work so much..."

lol... as if can feed mi... from e moment i step into the working society, i nv get my income from dem... haha... so... haha

我想他吗？？？ 我那么认为，但有人跟我说，你可能不想他，可是你的心是在想他的。。。 haha... 我承认为想他。。。 我喜欢她。。。 那又如何？？？ 事情过了，我后悔，可是没有办法了。。。 有人问我为什么会喜欢他， 我也说不上来。。。 可能是一见钟情或日久深情吧。。。 一见钟情是因为但我看到这个人的时候，我好羡慕他的一项专长。。。 日久深情是因为有一段时期我们一直来往。。。 只从我认识另一个人了以后，我就变了。。。 但也后悔了。。。因为我做错了选择，到了最后，我才发现我做错了。。。 我的好朋友，一个每天如果有空的人，都回来找我的人，现在变成了陌生人。。。 我很不习惯。。。 但我要是着去习惯。。。 哈哈。。。 不管以后会怎么样。。。 我都无话可说了。。。

这首歌是我所要说的：

一半
<蓝球火片尾曲>
演唱：言承旭


一直等 一个人 等了好久
这一场 独角戏 是很寂寞
春夏秋冬 我的窗口只有风景懂
爱的深 有多深 我也不懂
你走后 我的心 变的脆弱
听一首 也觉得痛但我谁也没有说
右边的座位 右边的枕头
都已经空了那么久
没你守侯 那是因为 我已经看透
没有你的爱
这个我只是一半
不哭了 不笑了
为谁留泪我也不明白
没有人能取代
一个圆的另一半
我固执 的等待
等风再把你带回来

haiz... dun have motivation in study le... cuz i find it bored le... tml having AI ut... until prob 4 sia... sian... prob 1&2 still understandble... e rest... lol... can i dun study le ma??? my espectation for study is high... but e higher i aim, e harder i fall... lol... sounds wrong... HEHE... nvm la... understable can le... haha...

once sky asked me: "im very tired le... can i dun study le ma??? if i dun study, i wasted my 1 yr de school fees... if i study, i will waste another 2 yrs... work still gt $$$ to earn... .... ..." NOW, i understand why he felt tt way... haha... its a very tired thing to study and meanwhile working... he still ok la... live nearby his workplace... mi le... lol... haiz... i will consider abt it... haha... study & no study make no diff to mi... its juz a diploma... haha... seriously la... my course rite... wat job can i gt even if i gt tt diploma??? lol... cant get anything ba... unless u go further studies... lol... i den dun wan... haha...

haiz... i started to miss white sands fair le... cuz of some reason... haha... haiz... I WAN GO FAIR~ lol... can i??? i miss~~~ i miss~~~ i miss~~~ haha... hehe... of cuz nt from my fair de la... cuz my fair de promoter... lol... 2 gals is my kor de fren... e other is a small gal... den ah boy nia... lol... i work until siao le sia... everyday think of working... haha... no leh... i onli lik white sands fair... lol... HEHE...

wahaha... white sands fair finally over le... haha... i shld be happy but i feel extremely sad... cuz of some reason which i cant say la... haha... im nt concentrating fully on my work today... cuz i know after today things will be diff... i know i will feel sad... but... bobian... there will be next fair again... haha... few months later ba... lol... i wasnt looking at my clothes while folding... my eyes is looking ard... lol... in my heart, i seems to be searching for something... searching for e shadow that i wan to see... when i found that shadow, i was happy, but i dun give any expression... haiz... i hope e next fair will come faster... lol...

PS: 我站在那里，不想移动，就为了在看一眼，哪怕只是那么一眼，就已经满足了。。。当我看不到时，我就是处寻找，就是为了多看一眼。。。当我看到时， 就会埋头苦干， 假装没看见。。。 好想说些东西，但是开不了口，因为一切对我已经太陌生了。。。我好想回到从前，因为我后悔每次都会吵架，都是因为我弄人家生气。。。 一切都已经太迟了。。。 那已经是个过去事，我要面对现在。。。 我不管被人说的一切，我都不想去相信。。。 因为我相信我看到的一切。。。 我知道是没有结果，哪怕只有一丝的希望，都不会放弃。。。 因为那是值得的。。。 我不管被人是不是那么认为，我只相信我自己。。。 我放弃过了一起，现在，我不放弃，也不要求，不要有结果，只要默默的，我就满足了。。。

2day go ard ti change for 10cents coins wit my promoter fren... lol... when to someone shop... i ask her go change... cuz i dun wan go inside... i dunno why leh... i juz tink tt if i go change myself, he might nt change mi la... if i ask tt gal go change, e possibility is higher... haha... cuz tt time i ask before ma... nvm... at least he change to her... during lunch break, i ate inside my shop tgt wit "Ah boy", 2 of my full time aunties & one of e promoter from my next door... haha... we have lots of fun inside the shop... lol... we play and laugh like no1 business... haha... i saw sumting halfway thu but i dun wish to say... it make mi feel moody out of a sudden... therefore, i pretend i nv saw... lol... continue my laughter...

but randall know why... haha... he's my buddy ma... HOR??? haha... everytime will wait for me to go home tgt de... hehe... when im late, he wont angry... haha...

i was late for class ytd... lol... my 1st time being marked late... lol... nvm la... its a 1st time ma... so tt means... still gt 2nd times & 3rd times... etc... haha... hope not... if nt mama wil kill mi... cuz she noe im late as i left my house very late... haha... nvm... nxt time left house early but walk slowly... lol...

tml will be e last day of e white sands fair... haha... yeah... but... but... i nid reach there by 9am sia... so early... sian... those stupid workers... repair wat light bulb la... cannt tml den repair meh... still nid push our wagons away... den i haf to go early to push back la... Sian... gg eat le... den wil go slp... lol...

haha... 1 hr nid to blog how many times sia... haha... bobian... nth do... suddenly very happy... lol... dunno y... haha... tml ut... nv study sia... HEHE... nvm la... pass can le.. lol... dun give a damn on it... HEE... tml dun nid work... i can play le... YEAH... but 1 thing very sad abt nv go work... haha... cant say out... HEE... nth impt... i wan slp.... lol... but cant slp... i very hungry... nth to eat leh... if i eat... sum1 will say... "chi chi chi... fei si ni ar..." SOB... say mi... lol... next time say mi again i slap u ar... HEHE... JKJK... later i kenna scold and beat by him... SOBS... y i gt tis type of fren de... haha... nvm... nt very close... wont c everyday... lol... HEHE... dun beat mi if u read tis hor... later no gal lik u dun blame mi... blame urself... HEE... hu ask u so diao... lol...

haiz... no comments to wat MR said... haha... none of my business... haha... i believe also make no diff... this person tell mi this... tt person tell mi tt... yy also tell mi... so hu e hell im gg believe... haha... our Dear MR explain to me so many times... haha... tell mi also no use... HEHE...

haha... anyway... all is over... i dun care hu he like... i dun care hu she like... haha... whether they tgt or nt... e most happier is mi... cuz... i dun have to be middleman le... haha...

i noe yy had make her decision on "sumting" le... haha... gd ba... cuz i dun like tt bastard... eventho is none of my business... maybe is influence by wat yy said to mi abt tt bastard... HEHE... diao kia... i owe u $$$ isit... haha...

aiya... everything my fault... haha... easy to settle... i dun mind to be e evil one... cuz im alr is ar... AM I RIGHT MOMOREN??? :P i evil ma... i hurt u ma... i change u ma... i suan u ma... RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT??? u dun nid say... & i noe u dun say... cuz u say even u explain i also wont listen rite... cuz u nv even explain at all... i bear grudges??? i arrr??? R U SURE??? HU E HELL FORCE MI SAY DE... becuz of u... i lost my smile... i lost my fren... suan le... its over... FORGIVE BUT CANT FORGET... HEHE...